Monday, March 29, 2004
Mom went to a dinner tonight so I put both guys to bed. I didn't read to Joe from the big Goodnight Moon board book. I pulled a smaller one from his shelf. It was yours.
I was all teary from the start but pulled myself together. Joe and I read a bunch of books and he went to bed like a champ. Then it was Jack's turn. We finished reading his book about Hellen Keller. By the time I got to the end of that I started to get all teary again. It was a very beautiful story. I kept thinking whether we had done everything to save you at the end. What if you had lived but were not physically like you were before you went into the PICU. What if you couldn't walk or see or talk. What would your life be like. What would our lives be like.
Jack is really a beautiful soul. He is very much taken by the life of Hellen Keller. As you remember he loves sign language. I think I told you how he walks up to people who are signing and communicates with them. I think part of it has to do with his relationship with you. He has a great sense of caring. I love that about him.